On being a parent

I knew I would love it
I knew I would laugh, love, and give lots of hugs

I knew I would kiss boo boos
I knew I would tuck him in bed, make him lunch, and kill more bugs......because he would try to eat them

I knew I would be silly
I knew I would do a silly dance to cheer him up, make funny faces, and crawl around on the floor

I knew I would change lots of diapers
I knew he would pee on me all the time, poop up his back, and out his shorts

I knew I would love him and want him to be happy and safe.

I didn't know how hard it would be for me to see
him scared and hurt

I didn't know that when he had surgery and the doctors did his breathing that I would hold my breath

I didn't know that I could run so fast to get him after he woke up so I could put him back on my chest

I know that life is precious, little things to some people are big things to other people, and this life is meant to be lived together in connection with a God who knows all thoughts, emotions, and fears if you are 1 or if you are 25